i was social today but being in the public means i have to use a lot of energy to be palatable and stable so now that i’m home i don’t have much energy to do much of anything amd there are things that i don’t have the answers to that i don’t really wanna think about so i push it away rn? trying to be okay with where i am now and it’s hard cause i don’t know how to do things for myself because my self image is unstable and i don’t wanna do things for myself i wanna invest my all into special people in my life but i know that’s not how i’m gonna get better
